Monday, January 30, 2006

being such a lazybum.. i really can't bring myself to blog sometimes. haha. too lazy! anw not really much stuff to blog about. :P :P anw!!

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR everyone!!!!!!!!! hohoho.

been going out every single day.. (oh just realised its the 2nd day haha.)
lots and lotsa food!! yummyumm. tho i must say i only attack the loveletters. heh. loveletters are yummy! :D had great food for reunion dinner.. and getting the rare chance of seeing my cousins all together! was swapping funny stories w pearl dot n dee at godpa's house today.. haha think we all have HILARIOUS stories to tell. blah dun want this holiday to end man.... oh wells. nth much to type haha. just hope i dun put on like, 5kg after i'm done with all the new yr goodies haha.. :P

-blessed
11:05 PM

Monday, January 23, 2006

haha. i think calling me 'da' is really unique to choir people. really. it's now no longer exclusive to dear riohc! haha. was reading mich's blog earlier and was pleasantly surprised to see her referring to me as 'da' hoho.. apparently all e ootgr's names have been shortened to one syllable by her, namely: mich yuan jas nad jia jo shee fel da. now that definitely makes things easier to type. :P you guys are indeed one of a kind.. :)





and... i think i have decided to stop IT. must steel my resolve and reset my mind! hard.. but since nothing can be done about it anyway... might as well. gogojiayou!! :P

-blessed
6:53 PM

no work today!
or rather. i decided not to go to work. heyyy waitwait im not a slacker k!
i just don't fancy calling people up with my half-muffled voice (esp in the morning) and coughing or clearing my throat every 5 sec that's all. so i'm home the whole dayyy!!
darn. i've got 3 birthdays to settle presents for. dead dead DEAD. nt to mention i dun even feel like stepping out of the house after shopping over the weekend.. seriously. the word to describe it is no less than spree. think i've shopped all i need for this whole year man.. its nuts! once again i'm amazed at how applicable econs is in life. 'consumer wants are unlimited, hence there will always be scarcity'.... tell me about it.

met up w sheena n fel ytd.. supposed to be the whole ootgr, then it got reduced to 4 of us cos pple couldn't make it, and then mich fell ill so left the 3 of us.. AGAIN. haha. always the 3 of us. n we're supposed to be from 'rival' jc choirs too. but who cares about that when we survived 4 years together! i'll probably never feel such a special bond to any others as compared to our grp of 9 frm snchoir.. *not saying that i dun love my hcchoir peeps tho. much to the contrary!!! (:*
so us 3 sat at snmacs.. (i know, some will say,'what a boring place, why didn't u all go town or sth' but its OUR place man... plus as sheena put it: town's boring. haha. can't recall how many times the whole gang of us just sat there after choir or meetings with a mountain of fries swapping embarrassing moments, stories and jokes.. ahh fond memories yes.) eating and just spending time with one another, catching up. :) :) :) super enjoyable. i only wished the sky was clear so we could sit at the playground and swing away to our hearts' content.. haha.

anyway. the year's barely started and our poor O levelees have already been loaded with tons of work, tests and STRESS.. i sure can understand how they feel man.
so to u guys taking the big O's this year..

*there's no substitute for hard work, so make sure u put in the effort yeah! do your best, and God will do the rest..

*ask for help if you need it!!! we're here for you yuppp. :) and God's holding u up all the way.

*make sure u get adequate rest k!! very impt if not you'll just be draining yourselves out..

*and of course, take time out to have FUN in the midst of studying.

remember:
'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.' - Philippians 4:13

nothing is impossible with God, trust in Him k?
jiayou!


deeper
Light to men
Love of God
healing for the wounded heart
like a child I quiet my soul
hear Your Voice surround me Lord

Jesus
Hold me into Your heart
into Your heart
Lord my soul delights
and I know You hear my prayer
Take me deeper Lord

Glorious Son to You I shall bow
Bow my knee
Bow my will
Cherished by the strong and the weak
Humble hearts shall hear You speak

Jesus
Hold me into Your heart
into Your heart
and Lord my soul delights
and I know You hear my prayer
Take me deeper Lord

And by Your love Lord You opened my heart
Now Your light will shine always
By Your Word Lord Your promise secure
and my soul will live always
take me deeper Lord

Jesus
Hold me into Your heart
into Your heart
and Lord my soul delights
and I know You hear my prayer
take me deeper Lord



a fresh start. a new year beckons.

-blessed
2:25 PM

Monday, January 16, 2006

no work today!!!!!!

yippee yippee yippee. *jumps around*

spent the remnants of the morning reading e basic theory book (cos i was dumb enough to go read the advanced one first without even realising there was another thinner book until my ma mentioned it.. -_-") then went online to do e lessons.. ok la its not so bad at least they help to refresh my memory here and there.. 2 more and theory test, here i come! hoho.

haven't blogged for long so decided to blog abit tho i dun really have much to blog about haha..

dot's back!!!!!! hohoho. missed her loads man. can't wait for the swapping of stories to begin!! *woots* alright. think i'm rather high here. :P

got treated to prata ytd! haha.. by my wonderful cuz of course.. but think he only did it after much niaoing and 'pressure' in the form of my extremely generous godbro.. haha.. hmm. but i wouldn't really patronize that restaurant again unless i was really looking for CRISPY prata.. cos the egg was abit pathetic.. haha. but it was nice! had lotsa fun crapping while eating.. love em loads! HAHA. jus think how far we've come from being childish little kids who used to play catching IMMEDIATELY after lunch.. hooboy.

hmm. only one downside to last week. don't really feel like talking about it.. kinda mostly erased the entire episode from my memory by coming home and getting lost in the current chinese drama serial showing on tv.. polishing off the remaining packet of peanut butter m&ms and listening to dee share funny stories about school.. [sometimes i really thank God so much for this family of mine.. love and appreciate them so much.]
though one part of me does wish i had turned to God instead of trying my own methods of self-comfort..
but. lesson learnt was never, ever stupidly trust someone whom you weren't that close to, haven't seen for 3 years, again. never. even if we all felt like sisters. cos people change. and who knows what they hide beneath their welcoming smiles.

yet even as i type this a line from chris' lesson ytd sticks itself in my brain again..
"God knows what He is doing."
He does, and my life is in His Hands.. some things i find it so hard to let go.. some i find so ke xi.. but in the end i guess it's 'trust God, He holds the world in His Hands! Why worry and cling on..'


Isaiah 55:8-11

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the Lord.
"As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.
As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
it will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it."

-blessed
4:58 PM

Friday, January 06, 2006

tired, tired and seriously quite tired.
haha.
ok la, i guess my job ain't all that bad.. it's just mentally draining i guess. i wonder how office workers can stare at the computer screen for the whole day!! at some point or other your eyes really start to tire man.

haha.. hmm i would liken the hours to having school plus choir EVERYDAY.. oh yes.. and then after work i hafta squeeze in the horribly overcrowded mrt train where everyone's packed like sardines.. and did i mention how suffocating it is when someone with particularly PUNGENT colonge stands right in front of you?? (did i mention we're all squeezed?) save me......

well so far i've called at least 200 total strangers, think i'm becoming an expert at this calling-unknown-people thing soon. no more pounding hearts! hoho. but i must say it really makes your day when you get people who are as polite or even more polite than you are and they answer all your questions so super pleasantly. ohhh and i must add that interestingly, i QUITE enjoyed calling up old grannies. (didn't really like the ah gongs that much) for some funny reason i found it both challenging and QUITE fun speaking to them in chinese. plus chinese somehow made the whole conversation sound so 'qin qie', what with all the 'hor', 'la', 'ne's and whatnot.. and they were so nice! though i was actually quite nervous. even made sure i checked all the terms with my friend before calling! haha.

today while checking the new batch of surveys i saw for 'language used in conducting survey: hokkien.'

right. i barely made it for chinese and now there's hokkien!??! sneaked a quick look at the particulars hoping to see a long blank where the tel no should be but to my disappointment (yes, i'm a horrible employee :P) it was filled up!! ohmyword. i don't even know how to say park in hokkien!! and what about family??? o.O

i need a crash course on my dialect.. and fast..


and in the midst of working i actually found myself to be schoolsick. yeah, schoolsick.

i miss the excitement of going back to school and seeing everyone (i don't miss the hw tho)
...finding my way to a new classroom and getting to know new classmates
...getting new teachers and experiencing feelings of dread or relief or excitement (depending on who the teacher is)
...'complaining' about the canteen food
...basically just the feeling of stepping into school.

suddenly after so many years of routinely going to school in the wee hours of the morning i don't need to, my routine has broken and inevitably i feel a sense of loss. just a teeny weeny bit. guess i did quite enjoy going to school eh. :P

ahwells. out goes the old and in comes the new!! (dunno what nonsense i'm talking about here)



just random thoughts here and there..
tagalongs. tag-alongs.
think most of us have been a tagalong at some point in our life, until we found our own group of friends, where we really belonged..
perhaps sometimes we still do tagalong.. i think i do.. i get the feeling sometimes. i especially sense when i'm lonely in a crowd. sounds ridiculous ain't it? i'm with a group of friends, yet i don't really feel as if i'm with them.. happens from time to time.. quite sad actually.
but.
i don't really like tagalongs. sadly. wish i didn't feel this way but i did, and still do.. desperately need to get rid of this feeling tho. cos i'm very sure it's gonna bring me a whole host of problems in the near future.
argh. why me?

i need sleep.
zzzzz.

-blessed
9:55 PM